चामुण्डा

You can't walk out,

if you do, you can't come back.

That's what I learned in our relationship.

Yes, it iz a relationship. In chemistry, any effect of one on the other creates a relationship, probably.

I don't know much about chemistry though.

Still, you give your all to me - all that remains.

It feels like I'm the one that exhausts you. Drains all your energy, like a vampire.

I don't want to be that.

There was a statue of Chamunda at Odisha State Museum in Bhubaneswar.

It felt like - Am I that? How horrible can I imagine myself to be?

I compared its nerves with mine. Both were visible on top of the skin, entangled.

Am I that negative? As I imagined that statue to be the god of 'negativity'?

Is there light within me?

Can I ever find it?

Can I ever find it in another person?

Or can another person help me find even a pinch of darkness if so-ever it may exist in me?

Why am I so filled with myself?

Is that my negativity?

Is that why I would walk out?

Can you take it anymore?

Shall I change for your acceptance?

Or pretend. To pretend, I need to know what I am so that I can enact being what I am not.

Who can accept negativity?

Nobody can, probably.

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