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You can't walk out, if you do, you can't come back. That's what I learned in our relationship. Yes, it iz a relationship. In chemistry, any effect of one on the other creates a relationship, probably. I don't know much about chemistry though. Still, you give your all to me - all that remains. It feels like I'm the one that exhausts you. Drains all your energy, like a vampire. I don't want to be that. There was a statue of Chamunda at Odisha State Museum in Bhubaneswar. It felt like - Am I that? How horrible can I imagine myself to be? I compared its nerves with mine. Both were visible on top of the skin, entangled. Am I that negative? As I imagined that statue to be the god of 'negativity'? Is there light within me? Can I ever find it? Can I ever find it in another person? Or can another person help me find even a pinch of darkness if so-ever it may exist in me? Why am I so filled with myself? Is that my negativity? ...